For people wondering where are all my posts went- there still here just check the archives to see th rest ; im only gana show 1 at a time.

okay so oviously today is a monday. and everymondaays are usually bleh to me.

express and vent? alright:

why do i even try anymore- im the only thing keeping this together.
your happy without me, why did i even bother to come in- there are so many other people that like you, so why bother talk to me.
yeah it sucks, it sucks that i cant see you, its sucks with these mixed emotions.
things werent ment to hurt this way but it did. you cant always say you dont wana hurt me; becuz reaally this love like relasionship thing always ends up with hurt.
but
that doesnt mean it wont make us stronger.
am i the only thing thinking aboutwhat could of beeen.
like i said rerun.
maybe its not a rerun who knows.
i love our happy moments
but all i know is that i cant taaaaaaaaake the "inbetweeen moments"
the moment were we dont talk- ignore eachother, the rollercoaster rides.
what happened to steady.
maybe our go happy joke deep mixed personalitys cant have a double.
ahh.
ah
ah
ahhhh.
i dont even know what to say any more.
baby you were the (8)freeken best, the best i ever had.(8)

this lil 8er doesnt eeeeeveeeeeen know.
im some kinda mixed emotion child overated kid thaat thinks to much about one thing.

"goood morning"
imissyou"

i misssssss those.
i loved getting texts the ccalls no matter how much i joked why ew y are you calling me.
what am i even saying . EVERYTHINGS ON HOLD.
i reaaaaaaally have to shuutup.

it sucks, that all. i fell waaay to deeep.
now i just have to climb myself out of this love hole.
We were never meant to be baby we just happen-Baby this is tragic, Cause we had it, we was magic.

laaater, (L) :)