ahhhhhhhhhh
flooood of venting? shaaaa-ure :

is just me or am i alone in this 2 way street.
your all, its all good
when its not.
everythigns crashing down on me, im overthinking things.
i cant even put this into wooords.
who is putting all the effort all the random i like yous , the smiles the laughs.
its pretty ovious.
this is a 2 way thing, it involves 2 people, 2 feelings. but 1 love.
and so far their isnt anything but
1 person 1 feeling and no love.
why do i even bother to carry on this thing?
oh yeah emotions, freeken mixed emotions. lovestruck.
i cant even think this thru.
since when am i mixed on what to do in life.
if all this is gana bring is hurt and confusion then maybe i can't hold on anymore.
i dont even noe what im saying,
all i know is i there is no communication.
this long distance is killiing me.
yeah i know we need time. and to stop over thinking this.
but i dont think i can do the second part.
sometimes i even pertnd to hide it. to not ruin things, iunno.
IT SUCKS.
you dont wana hurt me, doesnt everybody say that.
do you even reeally care ?
all i get is yeah, but how do i know thats true?
actions speak louder then words love, and im not getting any.
im not seeing any work put into this friendship.
its more like sinking then growing.
dont read this and be like woah shes head over heels or she doesnt understand.
becuz yeah im both of those things becuz i dont even know how you feel.
maybe its time you tell me.